February 13th

I am excited, David and I get to find out if the baby is a boy or a girl come February 13th. I thought I wanted a girl, and then I thought it would be nice to have another boy. Now I just pray for a healthy baby. Due to all my health problems we have been discussing and praying about this being our last physical baby, meaning we will probably adopt again later on down the road but I will be done giving birth. My heart aches over the thought of not being able to bear any more children. My heart has always been, ever since I was little, to have as many babies as God would bless me with. Since I am unable to take any birth control, and my health is not in good condition, I feel like it would be wise to stop and begin to focus on my health. Having a lot of kids is pointless if I am unable to be the mother that I know God has called me to be, and the mom I so desire to be. If I am healthy then I can focus on caring for my kids 100%. Anyway, I said all that to say, if I am having a girl then it will make the decision very easy to be done. If I am having a baby boy then I think I will always wonder if the girl would have come next. This is something I know God is in control of so he will give me peace to make whatever decision is necessary .

My mid-wife told me the other day that older siblings are usually right when it comes to gender prediction. Caleb, my oldest, who is only three seems to call the baby Sadie. That will be the name if it is a girl. I didn't really push to tell him the boy name because I thought it was so cute he called the baby by the girl name we picked. So when my midwife heard that, she said he is probably right. So of course I went home and thought that I should ask him to see what he says. He really doesn't understand the difference between girl and boy yet, and he doesn't know how to tell the difference between girl names and boys names. When I got home I asked him "Caleb, is mommy's baby a boy or a girl?" He answered "Baby-a-girr" Which girr is how he says girl since he can't say his "L's". Now he goes around all day saying "baby-a-girr". I am so excited and hope he is being prophetic:):). He also has been rubbing my belly and telling the baby he is the big "brubber" (brother). He kisses the baby all the time and tells me "Baby is peep" which means baby is sleep since he can't say his "S's" either :). It is such a joy to have this new one coming and I am enjoying the fact that Caleb is excited.

On a different note. I have been tagged (quite a few days ago) by Ashleigh to do this cool book meme thing. I am going to post in the morning with my entry. I am so sorry Ashleigh for not doing it sooner.:)