Life

I was thinking alot about babies today (go figure) :-). I began looking through the pictures of when my boys were born. I thought I might share a couple favorites as I prepare to post new ones of our newest addition (coming soon) :)



Baby Caleb, Nov. 1st 2003






Baby Noah, Feb. 21st 2004






Baby Dawson, Sept. 18th 2005

Am I there yet????

Well I am 35 weeks today. Exactly 5 1/2 days away from when I went into labor with my beautiful Dawson. Noah was also born quite early I was a day away from 37 weeks. I remember with my boys getting to a place where I thought they would never be born. I am feeling that way this time too;) I wonder how I would have felt if I had to wait till 40 weeks or so. I am thankful to have been able to birth them early.

A couple of days ago I woke up and felt like crying..... something I had never experienced while pregnant with my boys. I was irritable and exhausted and crying. Ever since then I have been the same way. I am starting to get frustrated with these feelings, but I assume they are normal hormonal things that will pass soon. Has anyone experienced this when pregnant? At least I am aware that this is taking place, and I am able to walk away from the kids instead of taking my frustrations out on them. I find myself getting irritated when they get hyper, when usually it brings a smile to my face to see them happy and enjoying life. I find that when they want to love on me and want to snuggle it makes me frustrated instead of joyful, I just don't want to be touched. I am SO ready for this to be over. I hate feeling like this. Being with my kids, and watching them play, and letting them hang all over me is so fun, usually. Hopefully I am not making any major mistakes with my kids and they will still love me when this is all over. Poor David, I have a conversation with him and next thing you know I am crying for no reason, seriously NO reason at all. How weird! I feel bad b/c I can't even take any jokes, my husband usually makes me laugh, and lately I don't even realize he is joking. I am so sorry I am being like this and can't figure out how to change it. I am praying for some peace during this time and some self control to not let my hormones get the best of me. I know it is probably normal but I don't want to hurt my family, and my babies don't understand what's going on and it isn't there responsibility to.

I am sorry to vent all of this after a month of not writing. This past month has been a real challenge for me physically, mentally and emotionally. I know things are getting better, and I am looking forward, with great joy, to seeing my baby girl's face for the first time.:) I would love for that first time to be a week from now, but however long I have to wait will be well worth it.

Anyone have a scripture, a story, or some advice that might help me through this tiny hump.????

Oh yeah, with being so tired and busy lately I haven't loaded my new photos off my camera I have like three months worth on there. As soon as I do I will post some, plus, I am sure I will have a ton as soon as our new baby comes.