Friday, October 26, 2007
Brother sister bond
Since the day I found out I was having a baby (Sadie not a new one;-) ). Caleb has been attached. From asking me if my belly is okay. To touching my belly and kissing the baby goodnight. He even told me it was a girl. When Sadie was born he was so helpful and always by my side seeing what he could do. Now that she can play and laugh he always wants to sing to her and kiss her and talk to her. He gets so excited when she responds to him. There is a connection between the two. God definitely has a plan to use these two as brother and sister to do something I don't know what yet, but I do know I see something in the spirit. A bond that is very tight. A team, something that won't easily be torn apart. I know the devil hates unity so my prayers are constant for this. Like I said I don't know what this plan is, but I know there is something different about these two and their connection, and I believe God is going to use that in a special way.
Update on potty training....
We are now going number 2 on the potty, and last night we stayed dry till morning. Praise God!! One down three to go. I think in three years I may them all out of diapers. geesh!!!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
The rain is coming!
Have you ever went to bed with a stuffy nose, and had to sleep breathing through your mouth all night? When you wake up your mouth is so dry that when you try to swallow you choke because it's so dry. I hate that feeling. Even when you take that first swallow of water it barely goes down. It takes a whole cup of water before things in your mouth and your throat begin to moisten. Swallowing becomes easier and even your nose begins to clear.
Lately My walk with God has been so dry it reminds me of waking up in the morning after breathing through my mouth all night. On top of that imagine instead of the sip of water I would usual take to help it. It feels like I am taking the driest dirt I can find and shoveling it in. I'm choking. I can't do this. My walk with God is just dry. I don't know what to do.
It feels like sunset. The sun is huge. Bright, big, Orange and yellow. Beating on the Ground (my heart). It is hot, it is scary, and there feels like no escape. The ground is so dry. The cracks are huge, and very deep. I don't know what to do. There are days I just want to disappear, I really do. Giving up seems like the best idea right now. I just want to escape the heat. I don't want to feel like am choking anymore. I don't want to feel so dry. I mean the cracks are so deep that I don't even know if there is any hope in tapping into a well or spring. I don't know if I want to try. I want to give up. Who cares right? I am tired. So tired. I don't want to go on. Don't make me go on. What else is there to do.
Calling on Jesus at this point is all I can do. It is my only answer. I don't get to give up. I have children and a husband and a good life. I need the Lord so what do I do I call on His Name. In desperation I fall at his feet and pray for his living water and refreshing rain to fall on me. I need life. I need Jesus to break up my ground and to begin to water me. I need Him to begin to produce life me once again. I have forgotten what that feels like. I need Jesus!!!!!!
Jesus said he would never leave us nor forsake us. He said he would comfort us, and love us. So I ask him to do that. I had no other choice. Giving up is not option.
Healing Rain from the Almighty is an option.
Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
That is an option
I need the rain. I need to tap into the wellspring of living water and drink. That is an option
I found this scripture which I think sums up everything I have been going through this past two years since I have left my last church and entered this new one. I have been dealing with a lot of hurts and old wounds. I have been trying to heal from a broken spirit. I am getting there. God is bringing his rain. In fact I do not think it was an accident that we have been in a drought here in the natural and just yesterday the Lord brought rain and it has been raining for two days here, and it's suppose to rain again tomorrow. The Lord told me this morning to get up off the couch and take my son Dawson outside and play in the rain with him. I did just that. I felt so free and had so much fun. I got a taste in the natural of what it is beginning to feel like in the spiritual for me. I am excited and I hope this encourages someone else who maybe going through something like this.
1COME AND let us return to the Lord, for He has torn so that He may heal us; He has stricken so that He may bind us up. 2After two days He will revive us (quicken us, give us life); on the third day He will raise us up that we may live before Him.
3Yes, let us know (recognize, be acquainted with, and understand) Him; let us be zealous to know the Lord [to appreciate, give heed to, and cherish Him]. His going forth is prepared and certain as the dawn, and He will come to us as the [heavy] rain, as the latter rain that waters the earth.
Lately My walk with God has been so dry it reminds me of waking up in the morning after breathing through my mouth all night. On top of that imagine instead of the sip of water I would usual take to help it. It feels like I am taking the driest dirt I can find and shoveling it in. I'm choking. I can't do this. My walk with God is just dry. I don't know what to do.
It feels like sunset. The sun is huge. Bright, big, Orange and yellow. Beating on the Ground (my heart). It is hot, it is scary, and there feels like no escape. The ground is so dry. The cracks are huge, and very deep. I don't know what to do. There are days I just want to disappear, I really do. Giving up seems like the best idea right now. I just want to escape the heat. I don't want to feel like am choking anymore. I don't want to feel so dry. I mean the cracks are so deep that I don't even know if there is any hope in tapping into a well or spring. I don't know if I want to try. I want to give up. Who cares right? I am tired. So tired. I don't want to go on. Don't make me go on. What else is there to do.
Calling on Jesus at this point is all I can do. It is my only answer. I don't get to give up. I have children and a husband and a good life. I need the Lord so what do I do I call on His Name. In desperation I fall at his feet and pray for his living water and refreshing rain to fall on me. I need life. I need Jesus to break up my ground and to begin to water me. I need Him to begin to produce life me once again. I have forgotten what that feels like. I need Jesus!!!!!!
Jesus said he would never leave us nor forsake us. He said he would comfort us, and love us. So I ask him to do that. I had no other choice. Giving up is not option.
Healing Rain from the Almighty is an option.
Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
That is an option
I need the rain. I need to tap into the wellspring of living water and drink. That is an option
I found this scripture which I think sums up everything I have been going through this past two years since I have left my last church and entered this new one. I have been dealing with a lot of hurts and old wounds. I have been trying to heal from a broken spirit. I am getting there. God is bringing his rain. In fact I do not think it was an accident that we have been in a drought here in the natural and just yesterday the Lord brought rain and it has been raining for two days here, and it's suppose to rain again tomorrow. The Lord told me this morning to get up off the couch and take my son Dawson outside and play in the rain with him. I did just that. I felt so free and had so much fun. I got a taste in the natural of what it is beginning to feel like in the spiritual for me. I am excited and I hope this encourages someone else who maybe going through something like this.
Hosea 6
1COME AND let us return to the Lord, for He has torn so that He may heal us; He has stricken so that He may bind us up. 2After two days He will revive us (quicken us, give us life); on the third day He will raise us up that we may live before Him.
3Yes, let us know (recognize, be acquainted with, and understand) Him; let us be zealous to know the Lord [to appreciate, give heed to, and cherish Him]. His going forth is prepared and certain as the dawn, and He will come to us as the [heavy] rain, as the latter rain that waters the earth.
And this is my life......
Bethany and Anne did pictures of "this is my life". I figured if I did a series of pictures like that they would definitely be to horrific to post. The other night David had to work pretty late and I wasn't feeling well at all. The kids were acting up, The dog went to the bathroom on the floor, sadie was screaming, the two younger boys were playing in the dog water and food. Then Noah thought he would try and help out by getting the little vacuum out and clean it up. Caleb wanted to wash his hands in the bathroom, but changed his mind and eft the water running, shut the door, and came out to the very messy kitchen and finished washing them there. This was all happening at the same time dinner was suppose to be eaten. On top of all that every toy imaginable was out and strewn about the house. So at that moment I stopped. I decided instead of being stressed and freaking out. I was gonna take pictures. So I am going to post them in good faith that you guys will know that my house doesn't always look like this. I have to say it was one of the worse ever. I had to laugh. I still think I got frustrated and stressed out too. Well here goes with the horrific pictures. Hope you enjoy!!
P.S. I'll will post pictures of a good day at our house later:):)
P.S. I'll will post pictures of a good day at our house later:):)
Not a photographer
I am definitely not a photographer. I can't pictures to save my life. I do love to take them of my kids though. I have taken a ton over the last few weeks and I have tried to edit them to make them look decent, but nothing can help the fact that I just take bad pictures. Oh well, My kids make them cute. To all you photographers out there that read my blog. I am sorry. I am posting the pictures anyway because my kids are cute and this is the best I can do :):) I think I should take a few beginner courses or read a book or two (like I really have time hehehehe). Anyone have any suggestions for me?
Saturday, October 6, 2007
October 3, 2007
On October 2nd I decided I needed to get extremely serious about potty training. I had been semi trying, but mainly leaving it alone. Our doctor said that forcing boys to potty train is a waist of time and could seriously backfire. Having three boys and four kids, and all of them small. I didn't need a huge backfiring such as potty training. Back to the getting serious part. I figured with Caleb getting ready to turn four in Nov. I needed to focus on him the most. He was the one I knew had the control and was aware of his bodily functions to put it in a nice way:) I started on the second by making potty charts for all three boys and sticking them on the potty every hour without fail. I wasn't discouraged at the end of the day because I really didn't expect anything to happen, so when I got Dawson my youngest to poop on the potty that day It was a very huge accomplishment. However, He didn't have a clue what he was doing. I just happen to catch him going and threw him on the potty right away and he finished up. It's a start though. You have to start somewhere right? He was excited because I was excited but he really didn't understand what was happening it was very cute.
The next day on October 3, 2007 is the whole reason for this post and is a day I will not forget for a long time to come. I am very pleased to announce that my son Caleb went pee-pee on the potty for the first time ever. I thought it was going to stop there, but no. Much to my surprise for the rest of the day and since then he has been telling me when he has to go and taking it upon himself to go to the bathroom and pee-pee (standing up if I might add) all by himself. I am so very proud of him. He is growing up. The doctors were right. Boys will just decide to go one day and that will be that. Or at least that has been what has worked for me so far. Next we will be working on the over night wetting the bed and the number two in the potty. He actually goes and gets a diaper and puts it on so he can go poop. It's funny now, but I am sure that will get old soon. Noah has taken a big interest in the potty thing since Caleb gets to wear big boy underwear with Thomas the Train on them. Thomas the Train is like the best toy ever in this house:):).
I was excited and wanted to share some very good and long awaited news.
The next day on October 3, 2007 is the whole reason for this post and is a day I will not forget for a long time to come. I am very pleased to announce that my son Caleb went pee-pee on the potty for the first time ever. I thought it was going to stop there, but no. Much to my surprise for the rest of the day and since then he has been telling me when he has to go and taking it upon himself to go to the bathroom and pee-pee (standing up if I might add) all by himself. I am so very proud of him. He is growing up. The doctors were right. Boys will just decide to go one day and that will be that. Or at least that has been what has worked for me so far. Next we will be working on the over night wetting the bed and the number two in the potty. He actually goes and gets a diaper and puts it on so he can go poop. It's funny now, but I am sure that will get old soon. Noah has taken a big interest in the potty thing since Caleb gets to wear big boy underwear with Thomas the Train on them. Thomas the Train is like the best toy ever in this house:):).
I was excited and wanted to share some very good and long awaited news.
Crazy Things
AHHHHH!!!!!!!
The last three weeks have been nuts. NUTS!!!!! We started with one sick kid, then two, then three, then four, then mommy and daddy got sick. On the bright side of things, by this point, most of kids were getting better ....... oh wait!!! Two of them got sick again AHHHHHH!!!!. Mommy and daddy are not getting better yet because they can't rest. Why mommy can't rest I will never know:). Everyone knows that moms just sit around all day watching T.V. and eating Bon-Bons right? Anyway, we are now starting to all feel better (three weeks and about five or six trips to the doctors later). In the mean time while all of this was going on my computer broke. My hard drive went and I lost everything. My pictures, movies, music, documents. Everything. I am very sad. We sent it in to Apple to get worked on (which by the way I love apple). They worked on it for a day and got everything working, but I am starting from scratch. Thank God David has all of our pictures on his computer because that would have been a sad, sad day if we would have lost all our kids pictures for good. However, it is still sad because I had edited over 3,000 photos and made them mine. They were special to me. I know they are just things. I will be okay. I was just finding myself so over frustrated and a tad angry after dealing with all of this stuff these past couple of weeks. We had some bumps in our finances and some other unexpected things happen and it has just been a crazy, crazy few weeks. Praise the Lord it is over. David and I still Love each other and we found that we really run to the Lord and to each other during these times instead arguing and fighting and trying to place the blame which is really encouraging. NOT to say we don't do it occasionally. It is just more times than not we worked as a team. Yeah! it is over and now we can hopefully get a break before the next crazy time:):). As if life isn't crazy enough without adding all of these extras huh??
Hope all is well with you guys!!!! Blessings!!!!!!!!!
The last three weeks have been nuts. NUTS!!!!! We started with one sick kid, then two, then three, then four, then mommy and daddy got sick. On the bright side of things, by this point, most of kids were getting better ....... oh wait!!! Two of them got sick again AHHHHHH!!!!. Mommy and daddy are not getting better yet because they can't rest. Why mommy can't rest I will never know:). Everyone knows that moms just sit around all day watching T.V. and eating Bon-Bons right? Anyway, we are now starting to all feel better (three weeks and about five or six trips to the doctors later). In the mean time while all of this was going on my computer broke. My hard drive went and I lost everything. My pictures, movies, music, documents. Everything. I am very sad. We sent it in to Apple to get worked on (which by the way I love apple). They worked on it for a day and got everything working, but I am starting from scratch. Thank God David has all of our pictures on his computer because that would have been a sad, sad day if we would have lost all our kids pictures for good. However, it is still sad because I had edited over 3,000 photos and made them mine. They were special to me. I know they are just things. I will be okay. I was just finding myself so over frustrated and a tad angry after dealing with all of this stuff these past couple of weeks. We had some bumps in our finances and some other unexpected things happen and it has just been a crazy, crazy few weeks. Praise the Lord it is over. David and I still Love each other and we found that we really run to the Lord and to each other during these times instead arguing and fighting and trying to place the blame which is really encouraging. NOT to say we don't do it occasionally. It is just more times than not we worked as a team. Yeah! it is over and now we can hopefully get a break before the next crazy time:):). As if life isn't crazy enough without adding all of these extras huh??
Hope all is well with you guys!!!! Blessings!!!!!!!!!
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