The rain is coming!

Have you ever went to bed with a stuffy nose, and had to sleep breathing through your mouth all night? When you wake up your mouth is so dry that when you try to swallow you choke because it's so dry. I hate that feeling. Even when you take that first swallow of water it barely goes down. It takes a whole cup of water before things in your mouth and your throat begin to moisten. Swallowing becomes easier and even your nose begins to clear.

Lately My walk with God has been so dry it reminds me of waking up in the morning after breathing through my mouth all night. On top of that imagine instead of the sip of water I would usual take to help it. It feels like I am taking the driest dirt I can find and shoveling it in. I'm choking. I can't do this. My walk with God is just dry. I don't know what to do.

It feels like sunset. The sun is huge. Bright, big, Orange and yellow. Beating on the Ground (my heart). It is hot, it is scary, and there feels like no escape. The ground is so dry. The cracks are huge, and very deep. I don't know what to do. There are days I just want to disappear, I really do. Giving up seems like the best idea right now. I just want to escape the heat. I don't want to feel like am choking anymore. I don't want to feel so dry. I mean the cracks are so deep that I don't even know if there is any hope in tapping into a well or spring. I don't know if I want to try. I want to give up. Who cares right? I am tired. So tired. I don't want to go on. Don't make me go on. What else is there to do.

Calling on Jesus at this point is all I can do. It is my only answer. I don't get to give up. I have children and a husband and a good life. I need the Lord so what do I do I call on His Name. In desperation I fall at his feet and pray for his living water and refreshing rain to fall on me. I need life. I need Jesus to break up my ground and to begin to water me. I need Him to begin to produce life me once again. I have forgotten what that feels like. I need Jesus!!!!!!

Jesus said he would never leave us nor forsake us. He said he would comfort us, and love us. So I ask him to do that. I had no other choice. Giving up is not option.

Healing Rain from the Almighty is an option.

Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

That is an option

I need the rain. I need to tap into the wellspring of living water and drink. That is an option

I found this scripture which I think sums up everything I have been going through this past two years since I have left my last church and entered this new one. I have been dealing with a lot of hurts and old wounds. I have been trying to heal from a broken spirit. I am getting there. God is bringing his rain. In fact I do not think it was an accident that we have been in a drought here in the natural and just yesterday the Lord brought rain and it has been raining for two days here, and it's suppose to rain again tomorrow. The Lord told me this morning to get up off the couch and take my son Dawson outside and play in the rain with him. I did just that. I felt so free and had so much fun. I got a taste in the natural of what it is beginning to feel like in the spiritual for me. I am excited and I hope this encourages someone else who maybe going through something like this.

Hosea 6

¹COME AND let us return to the Lord, for He has torn so that He may heal us; He has stricken so that He may bind us up. ²After two days He will revive us (quicken us, give us life); on the third day He will raise us up that we may live before Him.

³Yes, let us know (recognize, be acquainted with, and understand) Him; let us be zealous to know the Lord [to appreciate, give heed to, and cherish Him]. His going forth is prepared and certain as the dawn, and He will come to us as the [heavy] rain, as the latter rain that waters the earth.